Nature Me
EARTH
My own private wild
my nimble shoes penetrate the leafed archway
welcoming me to the wooded hills
my feet resonate with minute gravel and
bluestone-poking-out-of-packed-earth massages
through thin rubber soles
and generate the cycle of my movement loop:
lift, roll, repeat.
lift, roll, repeat.
this aggregate of micro-movements spontaneously organize;
leaching warmth and a zapping web of internal fuzzy sensation
‘float’ takes over and connects me to my nature
executing my assigned role is no longer in me
I dissolve from the vibration out of my solute station as stalagmite
of society, family, beauty, appropriateness, and more appropriateness
I heat up so dryly that my mind sparks a thread of smoke and
over the next three hours a full roaring flame presides
I am fire of experimental existence set in natural motion
I metabolize combustion at my precise pace,
beyond and before carbon soot takes green wood
I, elemental paradox, the incinerator and generator of this day
exemplar of all movement.
my nimble shoes penetrate the leafed archway
welcoming me to the wooded hills
my feet resonate with minute gravel and
bluestone-poking-out-of-packed-earth massages
through thin rubber soles
and generate the cycle of my movement loop:
lift, roll, repeat.
lift, roll, repeat.
this aggregate of micro-movements spontaneously organize;
leaching warmth and a zapping web of internal fuzzy sensation
‘float’ takes over and connects me to my nature
executing my assigned role is no longer in me
I dissolve from the vibration out of my solute station as stalagmite
of society, family, beauty, appropriateness, and more appropriateness
I heat up so dryly that my mind sparks a thread of smoke and
over the next three hours a full roaring flame presides
I am fire of experimental existence set in natural motion
I metabolize combustion at my precise pace,
beyond and before carbon soot takes green wood
I, elemental paradox, the incinerator and generator of this day
exemplar of all movement.
Path
I heard impish wood nymphs calling
drawn to their harmonic lightning, I followed
they permitted me to play in this gooseflesh
ride hitching by song, wit, daydream and
energetic proximity
I was hypnotized
into the pinnate capillaries of each leaf, branch, stream and blossom
~drunk~
on the wafting honeysuckle same as the funk of pear blossom
yearning to live woozy in every dingy delta, forest and swamp
entranced by grotesque lichen and fetid fungus
I kept on
waiting for the place with well-honed claws to pluck me into the bog of eternal cosmos
my path banal as the texture of river stones
I heard impish wood nymphs calling
drawn to their harmonic lightning, I followed
they permitted me to play in this gooseflesh
ride hitching by song, wit, daydream and
energetic proximity
I was hypnotized
into the pinnate capillaries of each leaf, branch, stream and blossom
~drunk~
on the wafting honeysuckle same as the funk of pear blossom
yearning to live woozy in every dingy delta, forest and swamp
entranced by grotesque lichen and fetid fungus
I kept on
waiting for the place with well-honed claws to pluck me into the bog of eternal cosmos
my path banal as the texture of river stones
Floral epistles
I’m just here to traipse
as many diurnal gradients as it takes
to absorb yolky sustenance from every
plump flesh, parched dust, and wayward pistil
and follow available channels
to witness gossamer-fresh winglets
emerald bloods capillarying leaf tissue
and silent-until-crunching snow crystal
I trod my compulsory urban-shedding allotment
of skin and mind
my molted nerve-sheaths finally moist for wild exposures
I’ll pretend stamen to glean floral epistles
my glistening honey-marinated finger
flung full-peach to sky
awaiting wafts of cellulose prickles, rotting leaflets
and gnat-encrusted dew
I repent my pollutants to fairy, elf, nymph, troll
and the sprouting apricotyledon
I can’t presume my forest-role
but I’ll inobtruse myself in kinesthetic anticipation
I’m just here to traipse
as many diurnal gradients as it takes
to absorb yolky sustenance from every
plump flesh, parched dust, and wayward pistil
and follow available channels
to witness gossamer-fresh winglets
emerald bloods capillarying leaf tissue
and silent-until-crunching snow crystal
I trod my compulsory urban-shedding allotment
of skin and mind
my molted nerve-sheaths finally moist for wild exposures
I’ll pretend stamen to glean floral epistles
my glistening honey-marinated finger
flung full-peach to sky
awaiting wafts of cellulose prickles, rotting leaflets
and gnat-encrusted dew
I repent my pollutants to fairy, elf, nymph, troll
and the sprouting apricotyledon
I can’t presume my forest-role
but I’ll inobtruse myself in kinesthetic anticipation
FOREST
Shinrin yoku
burst of mayapple
juice on path dappled
aroma releasing
walking and dreaming
I am fragile
I meet you there
dreams we share
a tickle, a blossom,
the sensation of ‘awesome’
with the forest
I am my own mystery
our paths cross
disrupting moss
we changeling-prone
influenced alone
comingled for now
our scent attracts fauna
wishing humanness
sparkling green leaves
protection received
for-ever this journey
eternity return me
burst of mayapple
juice on path dappled
aroma releasing
walking and dreaming
I am fragile
I meet you there
dreams we share
a tickle, a blossom,
the sensation of ‘awesome’
with the forest
I am my own mystery
our paths cross
disrupting moss
we changeling-prone
influenced alone
comingled for now
our scent attracts fauna
wishing humanness
sparkling green leaves
protection received
for-ever this journey
eternity return me
Mycelium
moderately unblocked suckling
teat repeat
harmless meat unattractive
my ripe abundance too fragile to sustain us
I let my mycelia dangle to chaos
ashamed of my layers
later underpinnings reveal
meat unattractive
your dry vacant skins adorn mature maples
a pathetic pockmarked passé mimeograph
of mushrooms that have never breathed
I turned into a palimpsest too
my faded topography unreadable intentionally
hyphae toward exposure exposing
diseased, invisible fungi
overwhelming the loamy understory
moderately unblocked suckling
teat repeat
harmless meat unattractive
my ripe abundance too fragile to sustain us
I let my mycelia dangle to chaos
ashamed of my layers
later underpinnings reveal
meat unattractive
your dry vacant skins adorn mature maples
a pathetic pockmarked passé mimeograph
of mushrooms that have never breathed
I turned into a palimpsest too
my faded topography unreadable intentionally
hyphae toward exposure exposing
diseased, invisible fungi
overwhelming the loamy understory
Connect
as I approached you I heard the delicate 'pop' of a crabapple underfoot
hissing aroma to mark our collective rippling
your willingness so fragile
to surrender fractured composure
your willingness to become a charged,
tickling static
your willingness so delightful
to absorb subtle mystery
as you blossom and pickle me
dripping with hide and seek
I savor your timely residue
In place of hearth a void
a target for shimmering
as I approached you I heard the delicate 'pop' of a crabapple underfoot
hissing aroma to mark our collective rippling
your willingness so fragile
to surrender fractured composure
your willingness to become a charged,
tickling static
your willingness so delightful
to absorb subtle mystery
as you blossom and pickle me
dripping with hide and seek
I savor your timely residue
In place of hearth a void
a target for shimmering
Apple
how I find you so attractive
that rounded look of slippery mischief
the magic in your boldness
the whisper in your sensitivity
I giggle toward
an apple like that
especially those haphazard dangling bits
and the mastery of paring to your absolute essence
long ago playful archetypes and quizzical myths
replaced all your problems
but also
you giggle toward them
I catch a wisp of your aura as you approach
a perfume of most piercing aroma, sans odor
your cavernous surround surrounds me
strewn with all you let pass
a radiant, seamless buffer
you choose to never suffer
your laser-smooth intention pointing
as-you-wish to tell me something
I’m aglow as I receive it
in the deepest layer of my understanding
you’re not even close to low-hanging,
but I’ll work to pluck you
from the blossom you outgrew
and peel you into splendor
how I find you so attractive
that rounded look of slippery mischief
the magic in your boldness
the whisper in your sensitivity
I giggle toward
an apple like that
especially those haphazard dangling bits
and the mastery of paring to your absolute essence
long ago playful archetypes and quizzical myths
replaced all your problems
but also
you giggle toward them
I catch a wisp of your aura as you approach
a perfume of most piercing aroma, sans odor
your cavernous surround surrounds me
strewn with all you let pass
a radiant, seamless buffer
you choose to never suffer
your laser-smooth intention pointing
as-you-wish to tell me something
I’m aglow as I receive it
in the deepest layer of my understanding
you’re not even close to low-hanging,
but I’ll work to pluck you
from the blossom you outgrew
and peel you into splendor
A mutual penetration
All of you entered me. Did I invite you?
it was too much
and then not enough
like a new ring of tree my cellulose matrix expanded radially to conform. The new me was temporarily beautiful until a sooty concealment of fear settled on this new growth
I came
then the swarming oligarchy spread
aftershocks of dreamy fluid rippled to the outermost ring, contrasting a hollow-foreign sensation trapped within my boundary
sap to rosin, feeling all the spaces between my cells rubber-sticky and frictiony so soon after so much slish
I walked out back, stretched my arms and legs wide attempting to expand enough to contain this simultaneity of past and future and, flailing around in the grass, compressed its density into a small enough piece to grasp
I dug a hole and stuck it in, hoping to inflict new growth
a fleshy mystery
All of you entered me. Did I invite you?
it was too much
and then not enough
like a new ring of tree my cellulose matrix expanded radially to conform. The new me was temporarily beautiful until a sooty concealment of fear settled on this new growth
I came
then the swarming oligarchy spread
aftershocks of dreamy fluid rippled to the outermost ring, contrasting a hollow-foreign sensation trapped within my boundary
sap to rosin, feeling all the spaces between my cells rubber-sticky and frictiony so soon after so much slish
I walked out back, stretched my arms and legs wide attempting to expand enough to contain this simultaneity of past and future and, flailing around in the grass, compressed its density into a small enough piece to grasp
I dug a hole and stuck it in, hoping to inflict new growth
a fleshy mystery
SEA
Fishhead
disrespecting your space
I worship a fantasy of you and wonder
why my dream goes splat
pierced from inside
I sag with dread
my warping powers
salt my wounds
fear of exposure
insulates me sweetly and keeps me afloat
fat truths numbed and tender from the cushion
I can't feel for them
rivulets divide my raft of vulnerability
surfaced by the fecalnet of gravity led entrails that caught me
slap me with that fish please
I simply savor its sting and stench
I reach out, fall, freeze, fail, cower, deny
open!
revel in those rivulets
and close again
net me some time--
I beg more patience for myself
you always come through
a reliable mystery
I hide from
disrespecting your space
I worship a fantasy of you and wonder
why my dream goes splat
pierced from inside
I sag with dread
my warping powers
salt my wounds
fear of exposure
insulates me sweetly and keeps me afloat
fat truths numbed and tender from the cushion
I can't feel for them
rivulets divide my raft of vulnerability
surfaced by the fecalnet of gravity led entrails that caught me
slap me with that fish please
I simply savor its sting and stench
I reach out, fall, freeze, fail, cower, deny
open!
revel in those rivulets
and close again
net me some time--
I beg more patience for myself
you always come through
a reliable mystery
I hide from
Preparations
I float by
to check the topography in my bubble
silent.
so you won't notice me
yet.
carefully clipped fingernails
and flesh soaked in moonlight
just for you
I feed a breeze enchanting
crosswinds hold my ecosystem
watching for crickets and sparrows
in case i'm a habitat
steam from my core
sustains my humidity
but if you'd like a cooler climate
deftly shift my axis
my poles orbit freely
especially for you
my hills of freshest green,
the bellies of my clouds,
and my solar blues could use
your polish
bring lichens if you find some
my collection accrues
all the hues of trebouxia
are nearly covered
I'll drain my mind for you
groundwatering a well
awaiting sensation
rippling my surface with your zap
notice before you enter
how I have sown each vapor with poppy, myrrh, balsam, and honeyed melon
my dewpond
a gift
for your choosing
I float by
to check the topography in my bubble
silent.
so you won't notice me
yet.
carefully clipped fingernails
and flesh soaked in moonlight
just for you
I feed a breeze enchanting
crosswinds hold my ecosystem
watching for crickets and sparrows
in case i'm a habitat
steam from my core
sustains my humidity
but if you'd like a cooler climate
deftly shift my axis
my poles orbit freely
especially for you
my hills of freshest green,
the bellies of my clouds,
and my solar blues could use
your polish
bring lichens if you find some
my collection accrues
all the hues of trebouxia
are nearly covered
I'll drain my mind for you
groundwatering a well
awaiting sensation
rippling my surface with your zap
notice before you enter
how I have sown each vapor with poppy, myrrh, balsam, and honeyed melon
my dewpond
a gift
for your choosing
I sea
I am the sea
birds, breeze and waves
grounded and moved
with pull of moon
drawing through my tissues
like a vast amniotic vacuum
this is my wave
this is my salt
this is my bubble
bubble me
The sea is me
bones, blood and moods
flows and stagnates
with pull of mind
drawing through her tissues
like a vast amniotic vacuum
she is my breath
she is my shimmy
she is my sorrow
We are the sea
fight, mess and crude
waiting for someone else
to clean it up
falling up and into
that vast amniotic vacuum
we are all stinking
we are all cowards
we are all toxic
we are all helpless
bubble me.
I am the sea
birds, breeze and waves
grounded and moved
with pull of moon
drawing through my tissues
like a vast amniotic vacuum
this is my wave
this is my salt
this is my bubble
bubble me
The sea is me
bones, blood and moods
flows and stagnates
with pull of mind
drawing through her tissues
like a vast amniotic vacuum
she is my breath
she is my shimmy
she is my sorrow
We are the sea
fight, mess and crude
waiting for someone else
to clean it up
falling up and into
that vast amniotic vacuum
we are all stinking
we are all cowards
we are all toxic
we are all helpless
bubble me.
SKY
Honeywings
I know what I want
it elevates me
I choose you (my reader)
I surrender.
join me in the fragrant clouds of the floating world
let your skin layers breathe
let your hair fall awillow
brush a songbird to your cheek
mistsprays, tickledips, etherfragments…let them all gather on your skin and hair
I’ll kiss each little toe in overwhelming gratitude
come where it’s free, warm and safe
abuzz with the music of life as loud as you prefer
our food shapeshifts to nectar
no matter its origin
our ambiance abrim with
the cosmic osmolality of vitality
come and free us from concern
slow
loamy joy
aloft
I know what I want
it elevates me
I choose you (my reader)
I surrender.
join me in the fragrant clouds of the floating world
let your skin layers breathe
let your hair fall awillow
brush a songbird to your cheek
mistsprays, tickledips, etherfragments…let them all gather on your skin and hair
I’ll kiss each little toe in overwhelming gratitude
come where it’s free, warm and safe
abuzz with the music of life as loud as you prefer
our food shapeshifts to nectar
no matter its origin
our ambiance abrim with
the cosmic osmolality of vitality
come and free us from concern
slow
loamy joy
aloft
Underbelly
you varnish the truth
as a pristine offering
freezing the unfreezable
where is your underbelly?
where is my sacred entropy?
acclimated your mind
for perfected protocol
where is your underbelly?
where is my evolution experience?
collecting linear paraphernalia
denies my oscillation
you are precious beyond frustration
even in flatland
you tread the tangible
while I ache to experiment
let's initiate curious disorder
with every glowing resource
I had a dream I was dreaming
I spiraled into my self
thanks for bringing me through
that polyocular abyss
I charged up my backside
to spring into action
allowing for my underbelly
decaying dances
in my spine of glass
we all laugh with god
authentically aligned
you varnish the truth
as a pristine offering
freezing the unfreezable
where is your underbelly?
where is my sacred entropy?
acclimated your mind
for perfected protocol
where is your underbelly?
where is my evolution experience?
collecting linear paraphernalia
denies my oscillation
you are precious beyond frustration
even in flatland
you tread the tangible
while I ache to experiment
let's initiate curious disorder
with every glowing resource
I had a dream I was dreaming
I spiraled into my self
thanks for bringing me through
that polyocular abyss
I charged up my backside
to spring into action
allowing for my underbelly
decaying dances
in my spine of glass
we all laugh with god
authentically aligned
SPACE
Star gates
Remember when we stood leaning against the mess hall table
popping dark cherries and spitting pits to deepen the conversation to places we wouldn’t let words go?
Remember peeking through forbidden forest dunes to the nudist beach?
Remember hiking to the Eagle’s Nest in complete moonless darkness to lie and ponder stars?
Remember sitting before giant drawing paper to facilitate an expansive conversation?
Remember dogpiling into the hammock like beloved pets?
we,
the explorers of outlying methods of meditation
never questioned why
we just built our star gates as birds build a nest
now they are there any time we choose to visit
Remember when we stood leaning against the mess hall table
popping dark cherries and spitting pits to deepen the conversation to places we wouldn’t let words go?
Remember peeking through forbidden forest dunes to the nudist beach?
Remember hiking to the Eagle’s Nest in complete moonless darkness to lie and ponder stars?
Remember sitting before giant drawing paper to facilitate an expansive conversation?
Remember dogpiling into the hammock like beloved pets?
we,
the explorers of outlying methods of meditation
never questioned why
we just built our star gates as birds build a nest
now they are there any time we choose to visit
I only
I only feel bold for two minutes every five months.
Are you following my cycle?
I only feel faint after your most daring escapades.
Are you ever a light-stepper?
I only feel alone while working the room.
Are you mingle-mangled?
I only feel the burn on conspiracy Wednesdays.
Was I a tingle too much?
I only feel drastic when drastic is due.
How about you?
I only find sprightly all the time.
Are you detached?
I only find clarity when saying your name.
In that unstable theremin voice?
I only find empty when full of my own shit.
Did you swallow that pain?
I only find everything always.
Is that an abstraction?
I only friend digestion when you read what I have written.
Does your tongue read braille?
I only friend my shadow when it holds me.
Can you show what you want to show?
I only friend chewing when it extracts the most pleasure.
Those stubborn incisors!
I only butter my toast with the full force of my fingertips.
Those scrawny imperializing limbsticks!?
I only feel bold for two minutes every five months.
Are you following my cycle?
I only feel faint after your most daring escapades.
Are you ever a light-stepper?
I only feel alone while working the room.
Are you mingle-mangled?
I only feel the burn on conspiracy Wednesdays.
Was I a tingle too much?
I only feel drastic when drastic is due.
How about you?
I only find sprightly all the time.
Are you detached?
I only find clarity when saying your name.
In that unstable theremin voice?
I only find empty when full of my own shit.
Did you swallow that pain?
I only find everything always.
Is that an abstraction?
I only friend digestion when you read what I have written.
Does your tongue read braille?
I only friend my shadow when it holds me.
Can you show what you want to show?
I only friend chewing when it extracts the most pleasure.
Those stubborn incisors!
I only butter my toast with the full force of my fingertips.
Those scrawny imperializing limbsticks!?
Wiggle warrior
I wiggle
when all we have is words prosperity and ridicule alike get sucked out to black holes
*dance or be eaten*
I fear dark energy
I fear the factory
I fear the simple-minded
but not my simple mind
I crave presence
*sing or be swallowed*
if my wiggle offends—get out of my way
you can’t crowd me out
I’ll use force if you push me
your futile fixation for flat offends
remember,
I am infinitely resourceful
I wiggle
when all we have is words prosperity and ridicule alike get sucked out to black holes
*dance or be eaten*
I fear dark energy
I fear the factory
I fear the simple-minded
but not my simple mind
I crave presence
*sing or be swallowed*
if my wiggle offends—get out of my way
you can’t crowd me out
I’ll use force if you push me
your futile fixation for flat offends
remember,
I am infinitely resourceful
