Fish Head

Disrespecting your space
I worshipped a fantasy of you
and wondered
why my dream went splat

pierced from inside
I sag with dread
my warping powers
salt my wounds

fear of exposure
insulated me sweetly
fat truths numbed and tender from the cushion
I can't feel for them

rivulets divide my raft of vulnerability
surfaced by the net of gravity-led entrails
that caught me

slap me with that fish please

I reached out, fell, froze, failed, cowered, denied--
opened!

revelled in those rivulets

and closed again

slice me some time
more patience for myself
you always come through
a reliable mystery 
I hide from


​

---